I started this blog back in 2012 when I was done with having three kids back to back as a means of finding a solace because motherhood was insanity then, and I needed an outlet to purge all the madness from my system.

I also started the blog as a gift to my children, hoping that some day they will be able to read what life was like raising them. And that I loved them through the rainbow days, and thunderstorm days.

This is the year 2019 and the years are indeed short. Ben is 10 this year. Becks, 9, and Nat 7.

I have officially transitioned from mothering preschoolers to primary schoolers this year, with the last child entering Primary 1.

And increasingly, it is becoming difficult to blog and chronicle my sentiments, reflections and musings raising them. They have become aware of the concept of self, and this concept of self is growing. As they are more keenly aware of who they are in their cultural, school, family and social contexts, they are also not so pleased for too much information to be shared.

Now they would ask me: Are you posting this on Instagram? Will this be on your blog?

Hurhurhur.

So, I’m at this inflexion point right now where I have SO MUCH to write about them but so little permission to, that I would have to increase my capacity to remember all our memories together.

In 2019, Motherkao blog would now be more about ME than them, and perhaps what’s it like living life at the brink of my 30s turning 40.

To possibilities, potential, and beyond. Happy 2019!